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Sunday, November 24, 2013

GBU

C... God bless you

YKWTDTGLUIP



Life is but a dream for the dead, 
And well I, I won't go down with my friends, 
But I'll go down by myself. 
Now now now now... (I can't explain)
Now now now... (I can't complain)
Now now, yeah!

cares for me

im just so thank God that i have someone who really cares for me. 

Saturday, November 23, 2013

one sun will go down, replaced by million stars

i dont know how many times sun will go down until that day... 
every night, i hope that tomorrow will never come...
so that we can stay like this forever...

but i realize, you're not mine...
and my time will end...

so everytime the sun goes down...
i'll sit and pray the same prayer...

i know God listen...
just dont worry anymore...
you're gonna be okay.. :')

one sun will go down... replaced by millions stars





my benefactor

it doesnt matter what you do to me... since anything you do to me, you have made me alive first. i was a dead man. but you came. and i knew what life is. i know how to be a real man. 

so, you can do anything to me. anything you want to do to me, just do it. it's only one i can do to you. it is to thank you... no other option. no need to worry, dont hesitate... im all yours. you can do anything to me.

you worth crying... you worth my tears...
but i hope i don't offer you a trash by crying. you are just so above me. im a lucky boy... 

you are my benefactor. no other option to me but to thank and to serve you. 

i love you, my benefactor.  




Sunday, November 17, 2013

bisikkan padaku...

tak pernah terputus doa ini ku ucapkan tiap hari... dan memang jika ini adalah waktunya, aku mohon, bisikan padaku hal itu, Tuhan.. supaya berserah hatiku seluruhnya... 

suatu saat nanti

ini bukan proses yang instan... 
kapan waktu nya pun ku tak tau...
namun aku percaya...
ini tak kan sia-sia...

suatu saat nanti... 

Saturday, November 16, 2013

my fate

if it will really never be able to be changed... then it's just my fate... even just like now, it's been more than i expect... more than enough... and i really thank for that.

i can take it... my fate...

Thursday, November 14, 2013

From the first to last

Two roads, split off from here ,
And my life goes running in opposite directions .
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am , and who Iwant to be.

I can feel my mind , wandering again.
Into where I don't know ,
and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving , faster than I can .
And I' m sick of this scene,
I need to break the routine.

Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close , and yet I am so far.
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Kesal

Kesal dan ingin marah. Kdg ingin mengatakan semua yg kurasa. Ingin agar kau tau apa salahmu. Ingin jg aku mengabaikanmu. Tp stiap mnhingat bgm wajahmu saat kau mnangis utkku, saat kau trsenyum pdku di awal2 kita jumpa, dan semua perhatianmu, semua itu sirna. Hanya perasaan ingin mnjaga dan bersamamu sj yg trsisa.

Saat2, spt ini, kenangan2 itu sangat membuatku tnang dan mnyadari bhw kau sgt mncintaiku trlpas dr sikap baik burukmu.

Mungkin aku mmg trlalu mndramatisasi keadaan. Tp, maaf, aku tak bs mnutupi prsaanku pdmu jk aku sdh krn sikap2mu yg sepihak itu.

Smg stlh semua selesai, kita bs mnjd lbh baik dan dewasa dlm mghdapi mslh.

Stay happy n healthy!

I love you

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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Biarlah

Biarlah kau dengan semua kbanggaan diri dan keegoisanmu. Aku tdk akn prnh bs utk mngabaikanmu dan tidak memperhatikanmu. Selama waktu masih ada, aku tak kan berhenti. Slama aku masih brnafas, jgn hentikan aku...

I love you...

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Wrong

Do u know that in some parts you are wrong?

posted from Bloggeroid

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Too far

God, one day if i have gone too far, just take me to You...

And I beg, that You will erase their memories about me. So that there won't be tears on their cheecks. They who love me.

Thx God...

posted from Bloggeroid

Monday, November 11, 2013

Dim light star

Aku hrs bs menerima ini. Aku sadar akan segala kelemahan dan kekuranganku. Kelebihan seseorg blm tentu dpt diterima. Apalagi kekurangan mereka. Utk smw org yg mncintai dan bnyk brharap padaku, maafkan aku...


Under the cloudy night, I see a dim star. The smell of the land that's bathed by the rain. I like this situation...

I know..
At least that star still want to look at me here...

posted from Bloggeroid

Sunday, November 10, 2013

...

If this is gonna be our last night, I wonder if I will live for another day...

But dont worry... my feeling will remain the same.. no matter what

You r just too good for me. Im the one who is wrong n guilty...

Im just so ashamed.. shame on you, that im the one by ur side...

posted from Bloggeroid

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Best present

Thx for your present. :') but u know? U urself is the best present for me. I love u.

posted from Bloggeroid

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Setiap kali..

Setiap kali aku mncoba marah dan kesal pdmu, aku selalu gagal. Selalu teringat bagaimna wjah mu yg sdh itu. Benar2, aku tak akn prnh snggup utk itu. Sayang sekali aku padamu. Seandainya bs, aku ingin bs slalu brsamamu. Walau kau bukan milikku lg kelak. Hnya ingn myakinkan.. kau baik2 saja.

Smgt, brsykur, dan dan cerialah selalu!

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2nd 3rd..

It's okay

I will never beat everythin you like.. never


Even if I was the 3rd, 4th or the last, I can take it

Maybe, that's ur way in lovin me..

I just love you, that's all :')

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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Dream comes true

I remember the very first time I met u. I just couldn't take my eyes from you that time. And I had a lil feeling that we were engaged in a way.

But turned out you were so cold to me. And that lil feeling subsided.

We parted. Never thought that we could meet again.

But I was just hypnotized by you. Refusing to forget you. I tried to find anything bout u. And found ur sosmec account. Since then, I always checked what u were up to.

Time went on... 2 months passed and we met again. Different from our first encounter, You were so warm n innocent that time. Our love started.

You are my dream-comes-true. I never thought you could be mine. It's just the most beautiful present in my life.

I know our togetherness will not be forever. But at least, we are together now. I just want to enjoy every second of our time, before He decides to seperate us.

:)

I love you

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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Truly love you

We've been thru everything.. tears n laughters, they all make me happy.

You r my true love. do u know that? I know im still lacking in some alparts, but my heart always beats for u. And I hope you also feel the same..

But I just realize that u dont... and indeed, you're supposed not to do. But though im not your true love, I thx God. Thx that one day, it won't be hard for you to leave me. It won't be much tears to cry for me. And it won't be years to forget me.

Thx for loving me, I love you... truly love you...

posted from Bloggeroid

Monday, October 14, 2013

You could...

You could actually be here... but I realize that you have priority...

If you know my answer, why you still ask and not just refuse it..? Yea.. I realize,you also need somethin else.

:')

I love you

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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Break

Break - Frankie J

Never feel alone
Never feel there's no one there who cares for you
When every door seems closed
Mine is open wide for you

I'll give you strength
Restore your faith
Im the one who'll be around if it all falls down
I will hold you

[Chorus]
I'll be there if you break
I'll be there if you crumble
Come to you if you come undone
Catch you if you stumble
I'll do what it takes to put the pieces back in place
If you break

Never feel ashamed
Never feel that it's weak if you should reach for me
When your chained by the pain
I'll be there to set you free

I'll give you love
I'll lift you up
I'm the one who'll be around if it all falls down
I will hold you

I'll be there if you break
I'll be there if you crumble
Come to you if you come undone
Catch you if you stumble
I'll do what it takes to put the pieces back in place
If you break

But if there comes a time when I might need someone
Will you be there?
Say you'll be there

Be there if I break
Be there if I crumble
Come to me if I come undone
Catch me if I stumble
I'll do what it takes to put the pieces back in place
If you break

I'll be there if you crumble
Come to you if you come undone
Catch you if you stumble
I'll do what it takes to put the pieces back in place
If you break
If you break
If you break

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sometimes i feel that way... but if you really knew the extent of my love to you... :')

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Hold myself

No.. I may not do it. I love you.. I love you... that's the feeling I have. I dont want to destroy u..

I must hold it in me. Let it explode in my heart. And let my soul cover it.

I love you.. I love you..

posted from Bloggeroid

Monday, September 23, 2013

the answer

now the answer from my 7 years of being stuck in study has finally come. it's to meet you. 
you are the one i've been waiting.. i've been searching.

now that i found it, i will keep it safe in my heart. 


Sunday, September 22, 2013

Brother n lover

Which one u choose?

When u become a brother, you will never be able to kiss her or to be so close like a lover. But no matter what problem you both have, she will always come to you and your relationship will be back to normal. Just leave her. She will keep coming back to you. Bcoz she really needs you.

if you are a lover.. you can kiss n be so close. Even you know what others dont know about her. But.. once a problem come, anytime you have to be ready to be left or hated. Dont even hope that she will come to you... you are the one who must make a hard effort. Even just to come.

Me? Sometimes I feel so greedy to want them all. But Im reminded.. im here.. to love you. To give what I have to u. And to ask nothin. That's all.

posted from Bloggeroid

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

...

C.. I m missing u, c. We just met several times n had a very exciting n emotional meeting, but Now I begin to really2 missing you.

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Friday, September 13, 2013

Heart of Sword

c, this song is the ost of anime rurouni kenshin (samurai x). i really liked the song long time ago. and it brings back memory

c, im running out of words to tell how deep this feeling to you. and i hope thru this song, you will really know how it is.

Heart of Sword - T.M. Revolution

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And I must go over still into the darkness of dawn.

If I try to play it straight, it will no doubt fail,
And tonight it won't go well between us again.

You can't see all of my hard efforts, because it's only result
Is that it makes no sense. It really is a "tightrope".

More effort, more damage--this is my daily life.
Taking a cynical attitude may give me some comfort...

Hiding myself, heated and irritated; living only a short time.

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And I must go over still into the darkness of dawn.

If I let my emotions free,
My dreams will once again not go well.

I think the balance sheet of my life is imperfect.
If I add up the plusses and minuses, will it really equal zero?

I want to control all my luck
That may be used up before my life is ended.

You don't know--you can change logic at your will.

I hurt myself because of you, over and over;
But my love didn't go away--it kept coming back.

The toughness gained from my damage is unbelievable.
I won't be able to sleep at all tonight either.

However many times it's repeated,.
It revives again and again--because it's love.

You can't blame my emotion,
Because you should know it will never fade away.

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And even though I'm in the darkness of dawn, I have to go.

I don't care about "bad affinity". Even if our love is not doing well,
Nevertheless we have deep ties.


==============================another translation===========================


Though alone, I think that I can make it...
...to the far off tomorrow before dawn.
My strong, jumbled feelings...
...will hit each other again tonight.

The scars left from all my hard work...
...leave me walking on a tightrope, even farther away from my goal.
It seems like I lose at everything I do these days.
It would just be easier to give up.

With all your might, hide the struggles you're going through. Life is so short.

Though alone, I think I can make it...
...to the far off tomorrow before dawn.
If I just put my strong feelings in charge,
Then I will have a chance at my dream again.

My revenues and expenditures of life are far from perfect.
I wonder if there's such a thing as hitting bottom?
I only have a certain amount of luck to last me รข€˜till I die.
So at least let me get in a try of my own.

Even you, who do not understand, only needs to change your way of thought.

No matter how many times you kick me away
I still love you
It's unbelievable how many hits I can take
But tonight, just as with last night, I can't sleep at all.

No matter how many times I repeat it over to myself
I come to the conclusion that I love you

Being ashamed of my inextinguishable, strong feelings...
...is what I've been doing wrong all along.

Though alone, I'm gonna make it...
...to the far off tomorrow before dawn.
My feelings for you are so deep...
...that it doesn't matter if destiny doesn't help me find you.

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c, sometimes i do feel pain. but you know? i never regret. even im so happy. coz it's from you. and im with you.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Do u think I?

C.. are u ok there? Im so worried of you. I dont know how ur condition is. I dont know what u r doin. With this, do u think I can just stay?

I really want to come there. But you want me to b patient. And I will. Just wait for me. Kepp being spirited! Dont worry, everything's okay!

See ya soon, c!

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Save me once again - the rasmus

"Save Me Once Again"

Like a stone I'll go down
I'm too far to be found
Got no place for the storm
All the love that I found
Couldn't turn me around
Drift away all alone
Don't say this is the end
I think I'm lost again

Thank you for your patience
The time that you gave me
I think I never knew
You were trying to save me
Free me from the shadow
That lay on my shoulder
Please don't say it's over, it's over, it's over

I Confess I was weak
Got my heart full of greed
Wanted more than I need
I'm standing on the edge
Afraid of emptiness
Don't leave me
I'm begging you my friend

Thank you for your patience
The time that you gave me
I think I never knew
You were trying to save me
Free me from the shadow
That lay on my shoulder
Please don't say it's over, it's over, it's over

Don't say that it's the end
I think I'm lost again
I'm standing on the edge
Don't leave me
I'm begging you my friend
Save me once again

Would you save me once again
Would you save me once again
Would you save me once again

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The only one I am missing of

C.. I dont know wat to do anymore. I just keep missing you. N it grows deeper by the day.

This feeling is just too strong. I cant help myself. Your images is everywhere n in everytime.

You keep being silent. I dont even know wat u r up to. I m the one who should know everything you do but I dont. Wat kind of person I am.. am I really ur lover?

I m so so so so sooooooo in deep yearning of you...

You r simply the true love of mine. The one I want to accompany the rest of my life... the light in my darkness. The fire in my cold day. The oxigent in my suffocating life, the sugar in my bitter time, the only one.. the only one...

You r the only one...

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I cant

My body is here but mind is with you.

I miss you more than you ever thought.

And I cant live my whole life now.

In my heart, only you I want
Only you who can calm this silent scream

Do you feel the same? Or I am the only want living it..

I just cant stop it..
I cant...

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Aah.. selesai jg

C.. gw br slesai urus peace camp hr ini. Gw cm bntu2 paniria n setor muka doang.

Rindu bgt gw sm lu. Drtd cr2 wktu buat ksh kbr tp g ad. D lantai bawah ga ada sinyal. Ini d lantai atas ad sinyal. Hhe.

Gmn hr ini? Lncar smw ya smoga! :D
O ya, hr ini sm bsk gw pke bju dr mu. Td si clar blg bgus lho. Mksh ya. Gw kliatn mkin wah. Wkakak.

Gw mo tdr c. Tp msh mo ngbrol sm tmn dlu.

Smgt y c!!!

Gilak, gw sbnrnya rindu bgt c.. pngn sgra jumat. :'(

See ya soon ya! :')

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Wednesday, September 11, 2013

yang ku pikirkan

c, rindu kali aku c. gmn sama kau? udah hampir seminggu kita gini. aku ingin bisa seperti dulu lagi. tapi, walaupun tidak sedekat dulu, aku ingin tetap bisa bebas berjumpa dengan mu. makan bersama, jalan bersama, bkin rencana2 bersama, belajar kehidupan bersama, ketawa, nangis, marah, susah, dan senang bersama.

aku sering kawatir padamu. aku takut sesuatu terjadi padamu. aku ingin bisa menjagamu c.

c, apakah aku memang orang yang paling ga bisa ngerti kau? apa aku orang paling tertutup dengan kau? apa aku orang paling tidak setia pada kau? apa aku orang yang paling suka berbohong pada kau c dibanding orang2 yang kau kenal? aku minta maaf jika demikian c. tp, aku selalu berusaha c utk kau. aku ingin bisa meluangkan segalaku untukmu. kadang pun aku berpikir, apa kah semua yang ku lakukan ini masih kurang bagimu?

tp aku bisa mengerti c. sangat sulit utk mendeskripsikan tentangmu. tapi saat kau dekatku, semua tentang dirimu dapat kurasakan. bagaimana kau bersedih dan menahan perasaanmu c. aku ingin jadi orang yang mengerti dirimu c. lebih dari orang lain. walaupun kadang aku gagal.

c... aku tidak tau apa yg kau pikirkan tentangku sebenarnya. namun aku selalu percaya c. kau sayang padaku. aku tau siapa kau c. kau anak yang sangat pintar dan baik. namun kadang orang lain tak bisa melihatnya dan hanya melihat semua yang kau lakukan sebagai hal negatif.

c... makasih ya c...

hari jumat aku ingin bertemu c... tolong temuilah aku.. sebagai apapun yang kau mau... aku ingin meminta beberapa pertolongan kecil padamu. :)

c, semangat untuk hari2mu! GBU!

Bersabar

C.. aku tau skrg. Kau pst ingn aku lbh brsabar. Ya, aku akn mnunggu c. Maaf klo aku krg sbr d saat2 spt ini.

Tp bsk jumat, aku akn ksna c. Aku ingin mnt tlg. Hehe.

C, smg kau ttp smgt ya! Ada daddy yg slalu mnemani kau, aku sdkt tnang. Kau tdk akn kspian. Aku prcaya sm mu c. Sm spt kau yg g prnh lelah pdku.

Jk kau btuh sesuatu, hub lah aku. Akn kuusahakn semax mgkn utk mmbantu. :)

Smgt utk hr ini c. Gbu! Syg gw c sm lu.

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Dan byrd - boulevard

I don't know why, You said goodbye
Just let me know you didn't go forever
my love
Please tell me why, You make me cry
I beg you please on my knees if that's
what you want me to

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Just one more chance, Another dance
And let me feel it isn't real that I've
been losing you
This sun will rise, Within your eyes
Come back to me and we will be happy
together

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
From:
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Maybe today, I'll make you stay
A little while just for a smile and love
together
For I will show, A place I know
In Tokyo where we could be happy
together

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

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Pagi merindu

Tiap pagi, aku terbangunkan oleh teriakan rindu di hatiku.
Mulutku membisu, namun seluruh tubuhku bergetar.
Mataku terpejam, bagai mata air, rinduku terpancar, mengalir dengan sendirinya dan membasahi tempat peraduanku.
Angin dingin mulai mengusik hatiku yg kosong, sangat kencang dan menekan tiap sudut di relung hatiku.
Pikiran pun mendobrak pintu pertahananku.
Berlari keluar, mencari di setiap sudut tempat dan jalanan memori,
Bagian jiwa yg terhilang.

Hanya sepi yg menemani...

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Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Love

When I know you keep contacting your special one all day long
When I hear about how you dont want to be me
When I see all that rude things you ever did to me

One thing I think os that you dont love me..

But everytime I see your face on my galerry
Everytime I count good things you did to me
Everytime I realize that I ever made mistake too
Everytime you I try to look at your past and present condition,

That tought gone.. and what I know is that you really love me..

And those words you sent to me thru text messages, and the words you told me those nights we roaming the city, give me the faith to carry on this love..

Love cant be measured by what we are doing.. only heart can really know and feel it.

I thank God that you are my love.

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Maaf yg td..

C.. maaf gara2 sok care td aku mlh nyusahin. Unexpected bgt. Dan malu sdr gw krn sptnya g ptg bgt td. :(
Tp.. mksh bgt lu mau susah brg sm gw. :')

Maaf ya c msh susah utk mlepasmu. Kau tau kan akn sgt berat bagiku jk endingnya krn hal ini dan bkn krn Dia. Aplg, ini bda sm kisahku sblmnya. Dlu aku slalu ingn mlupkn mrk dan mncoba cr pnggnti. Tp skrg sbaliknya.

Tp aku jg sdr bhw dg akir spt ini, akn mdh bagimu utk mningglknku. Trlbh ad org2 spesial lain d hdupmu.

Enth kpn aku bs mlepasmu. Aku msh ingin mnjaga dan mnemani mu. Saat2 dmn aku bs mlakukan itu adl saat2 yg sgt indah. Trlbh lg saat kita mlalui hal2 sulit brsama. Bagiku itu adl saat yg terindah.

Hnya sm lu gw bs sebahagia dan sedesperate ini. Hhe.

Mksh c.. slmt mlm. Slmt tdr.

O ya, bsk aku ud mulai peace camp jm12.

Smgt ya c! Jgn pnh lp brdoa. Dan gw hrp lu msh ttp cg n ktb. :)

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Asmara - novia kolopaking

Sendiri....
Kukemas air mata di pipi
Tak percaya 'ku yang t'lah terjadi
Cintamu kini telah pergi
Haruskah cinta aku akhiri
Hanya sampai di sini

Tak mungkin....
Aku berpaling dan menyudahi
Tercabik hati ingin meronta
Jangan kau rejam gairah yang ada
Haruskah aku mengemis cinta
Untuk menghilangkan duka

Asmara...
Kemana lagi akan kucari
Siapa yang 'kan mengusir sepi
Disaat 'ku sendiri

Asmara...
Mungkinkah kau sampaikan padanya
Walau hatiku penuh derita
Aku masih s'lalu cinta

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Forever

We are a mess n weird.. but we srand together firmly, facing the world...

Our love cannot be terminated by anything.. even death.

And the meaning of these all is.. that you love.. and I love you...

We are holding hand each other.. running thru the falling sky..

Forever

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Run

I cant let tou go! I just realized that I cant let you go with this ending...

Im so sory..

C.. just run away from me! Before it's too late. Im crazy, c! Im crazy! Run away as fast and far as posible!

Look c! How crazy I am! A healthy person will never do something so freak like me.

I keep writting here..
I keep following you
I keep persuading you..
To be trapped with me..

I am crazy... insane... sick...
Nothing you can expect from me anymore...

Im broken, c.. even from the first time...
C.. run...

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Maukah

Maukah kau mkan dg ku mlm ini? Maukah kau temaniku?
Aku mohon dg sgnap hati dan jiwaku...

:')

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Let me..

Let me take all the sorrow n pain.. let me take all the punishments. Set her free, God.. dont let her fall again. It's all bcoz of me. If this happened, I m the one to blame. Keep her safe. Comfort her. Warm her. Take her back to Your way. Like before she knew me...

Since I cant do it myself. Until forever this feeling will never change. I have found the one i 've been waiting. And allow me to keep this feeling with me.

Do anything to me, God. But just dont take this feeling... I beg.. I pray..

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Cinta atau..

C.. apa pndptmu ttgku? Tidakkah aku bagai org bingung yg tak pny pndirian? D satu sisi, aku ingn agr bs merelakanmu prgi. Tp d sisi lain, aku mnginginknmu d smpgku.

tbuhku bagai ditarik oleh kekuatan yg besar dr 2 sisi. dan aku tdk bs brbuat ap2. hnya bs mmndg dg tatapan yg kosong.

C.. lg dan lg aku hny dpt mnta maaf krn prasan yg kumiliki ini pdmu. Perasaan yg blm prnh bgtu dlm spt ini. Bhkn aku tak tau dmn dasar dr prasaan ini.

Entah apa ini cinta, atau keegoisanku..

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i wish you were here

you know how it feels when you need someone you love... and this time, i wanna sing this song like you used to do

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, oh, oh
No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go


Read more: Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here Lyrics | MetroLyrics 

sayang

c... aah... makin kesini kenapa gw makin syg aja sama lu? gw makin sadar kalo lu ini memang sayang bgt sm gw. apalagi stiap gw ingat expresi wajah lu saat sedih dan senang. terlihat sekali kalo lu syg bgt sm gw.

bahkan kau mau memaafkan 1 kesalahanku terbesarku padamu dlu. dan kau hanya menuntut keterbukaan yang total dariku. aku mulai bisa makin mengerti. tapi apa kau tau? kau adalah orang yang paling mengenal diriku saat ini. melebihi siapapun. orang tua, sahabat, teman, saudara, bahkan orang2 di masa lampau ku.

terlalu banyak pengalaman yg kita lewatkan bersama selama hampir 8 bulan ini. hanya dalam 8 bulan, semua pernah kita lewati. dan aku merasa sangat beruntung karena bisa melewatinya dengan mu. duka pun tak akan membuatku menyesal.

c... kapan bs spt dlu lg ya? melewati hari bersama. skrg kau lbh sering sdr. makan sdr, jalan sdr. smg kau tetap smgt ya c. jgn lp, kalau kau butuh apa2, bs lgs hub gw. walopun blm tentu aku bs menyediakan semuanya T.T
tp aku akan berusaha semax mungkin membantumu. itu pasti. :)

kau bs menganggapku sebagai apa saja. mungkin bukan sbg org yg kau sayang. teman mungkin. saudara. ato apa aja. rival jg mungkin. -___- walopun jelas aku kalah telak kalo harus ber rivalry sama kau. wkakak.

aaaaah... c... mengingat kau begitu sayang padaku, kerinduanku yg sangat dlm bs sedikit terobati. c, baik2 disana ya. jgn nakal. smgt. GBU!

btw, tebak skrg gw dimana??? hahaha!

Missing you so bad this morning

I dreamt about u tonight. In my dream, u responded my plsts here. And I could see you.

Sometimes it's so happy if I lived in dream. I could reset all things.

Are you missing me? You told me before that you missed me when I dreamt about you.

Im missing you like crazy here. I want to see you now. Now...

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Still feel

C.. I dont know why I feel that you still love me like it used to be...

I know you're hidding your pain n sorrow in your silence.. c.. I really want to accompany you. I just feel so dumb and useless knowing that you other people who console you.

C.. sleep tight. Gbu!

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Monday, September 9, 2013

Not sincere

You are okay there..I dont to be sad..

But why im still in sorrow? Maybe im just not sincere to you. Maybe im still wanting you...

In case of that, I can only say sorry.. and try to realize that you are not mine..

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Fourth reason

Now I know that he has the same feeling with you.. what can I say..?

You even dont get tired of chatting with him. U usually sleep at this time. But with him, tou can stay longer..

He's just way better than me in everythin..

Now that I really know that he does have liking towards tou.. yes he does.. and you also like him much, I must realize that I must let you go..

This is the fourth reason..

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Third reason

In your lonely time, you have a daddy with whom you can get in touch n share a lot of things.

When you have nothing to do, you have a brother who always waits to accompany you to do everything together.

And when you need someone to help you, your previous man will be there for you.

My third reason to realize how you r so fine without me. To realize how I must let you go.

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you came to give this marionette life

i was an abandoned marionette
sitting at the corner of the dark room
unable to do single thing

then 10 months ago, you came to my life for the very first time...
that time, i felt like there was a breathe came inside me

you took my strings, and began to play with me
i felt like i was not useless anymore
i could stand
i could move
i could do everything

and that's bcoz you were behind me
helping me to go thru all my handicaps
though you controled all of myself
i was just so happy...

you made me live again
you warmed me, and released me from being frozen
you simply gave this marionette life

but now, you see the hole in me
you see that i am too old and getting brittle
there are so much part broken in me
even some of my strings are unattaced and broken off
i am unrapairable

you know, despite im well covered, all inside of me is broken
you begin to leave me
throw me away
as im useless
and broken

im just a broken wooden toys now
unfixable
ready to be burned

but as im burned, i wish... i hope...
that my fire can warm you now...
so that i can pay all my debt to you

life for life









di depan fakultasmu

c, tadi baru aja lewat depan fakultasmu. aku teringat saat awal kita bertemu berdua saja di luar. saat itu kau menungguku di sana. dan akirnya kita bertemu. kita saling tersenyum malu. semua terasa kikuk saat itu. kita lalu membeli makanan di sebuat mini market. saat itu pun, hanya sedikit kata yang kita ucapkan. hanya tatapan dan senyuman. 

:) lucu sekali jika mengingat bagaimana kita sekarang. 

tapi, saat-saat itu, tak akan pernah aku lupakan. disana, aku melihat dirimu yang sebenarnya. dirimu yang tak dapat dilihat oleh orang lain yang tak mau mengertimu. 

c... smangat utk hari ini! 

why?

who am i to you?
am i someone you care about and love?
or am i someone to make you happy and to satisfy all you need?

but for me..
it doesn't matter how you will take me as
i just want to love you
that's all

sometimes, i wonder why..
why i really2 need you
why i love you so much

just why..?

even up til now, i still dont have reasons why

Miss you

God.. im so sorry that I miss her so much this morning. I just feel like im going numb. Freezed and stoned.

Everythin I see is her.

U still really2 want her

God.. does she feel the same? If she does, please wipe away it. Take her pain n sorrow. Put a smile on her lips.

If this means I have to be like this forever, im willing to feel it. But I just cant stop wanting her.. that's the only things that will never change.

This love is way too deep. I cant even feel the bottom..

I wonder how much tears left in my eyes to satisfy my yearnings...

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Breatheless day by malena erman

The summer sun bleeds into the sea
We watch the tide leave at our feet

But let´s remember
The sunburned lovers
Who found each other
When we were lost
I´ll have the mem-ries
To hold inside of me
After these breathless days are gone

Inspite of promises we´ll make
The waves will wash our names away
But we will hold on to the day
Pretending it will last forever

I will remember
The sunburned lovers
Who found each other
When we were lost
I´ll have the mem-ries
To hold inside of me

After these breathless days are gone
I know the mem-ries
Will never leave me
Part of my heart where you belong

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Have I gone crazy?

Where are you? I really need you..
I dont know why I cant be alone now. I was so strong before.. but now im so weak.

What have u done to me so that I really want and need you?
What you have said that cause me to call ur name every secs?

It's ok when you insult me
It's ok when you are so rude to me
It's ok when you blame me
But..
Why is it so painful when you're not here?

Have I gone crazy?

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Sunday, September 8, 2013

Trlalu bnyak..

Kenangan2 dan barang2 yg kau tinggalkan dg ku seharusnya membuatku mkin kuat dg ksndrian tanpamu. Tp rinduku makin mjd stiap kenangan2 itu dtg. Terlslu banyak kenangan2 brsamsmu. Semua hal prnh kita lakukan bersama. Suka dan duka, marah dan akur, semua perasaan dan emosi kita rasakan brsama..

Aku rindu skali c.. aku tak boleh sperti ini.. tp prasaan ini mncul tnpa ku undg.. rindu ini trlalu mndesak jiwaku. Aku seakan tak brdaya.

Ajari aku utk mjadi kuat sptmu.. kau bs hdp tnpaku.. namun ntah knp aku sngguh tak bs. Mngkn aku hnya kurang tulus saja.

C.. c.. c.. teriakanku dlm hati.. apa kau bs mndgrnya..?

Aku tak tau lg bgm aku mnghubungimu.. mngkn kau bnci skali pdku skrg.. brbeda dg kisahmu yg lalu.. dmn kau sgt khilangnnya..

Tp dibalik smw yg kau lkukan, aku msh bs mrasakan rasa sygmu pdku.. kau pnts mmbenciku.. dan tak layak aku utk kau syg..

C.. aku gbs bnyk menberimu kebahagaan. Maafkn aku. Aku hny bs mnemanimu.. ada utkmu... brusaha utk slalu mngrtimu.. dan hnya mncintaimu. aku tau tak ckup smw itu utk mu. Tak ada barang brharga satu pun..

C.. smgt ya! THx utk hr ini. Thx utk ksh sygmu pdku.. :')

Slmt tdr c.. Gbu! Tdr yg nyenyak.

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Bdmnton lg.

C.. aah.. hbs main bdmnton. Enth tiap main dsni slalu aj jleeeeek bgt. Mnang sih. Tp lwnnya satu lvel d bwh. Mn pas main hmpr sm kek lcw. Mo kram kaki.

Ud mkn mlm blm? Aku blm. Haus bgt skrg cm bw 2 gelas aqua. Mls mo mkn lg. Ah.. seandainya kau dsni.. hhe.

Snangnya td bs liat lu lg ketawa lpas bgt. Smg hari2 mu slalu gt ya. Snang bgt aku klo tau kamu gt. Aah. Tp ttp aj aku rinduuuu bgt. :( maaf ya.

Krn lu smgt, gw jg hrs smgt. :)

Mlm ini jgn lp lgs istrht. Bsk jdwl mu pdt bgtkan? Smg jumat bs ktmu ya. Hhe. Aaah
:'( ada peace camp...

Sbt mgu hrs ktmu tp. Hrs!!! Hha. Pngn liat lu. Smg mgu dpn kamu makin ceria ya.

Mau plg aku. Haus bgt. Plg dl yaa.

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Second

You are happy. You can laugh. Even without me...

My second thing to make me realize that your not mine.

:'(

Im sorry im still so missing you..

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Set and rise

The color faded as the sun set. Replaced by darkness n cold.

Memories linger and foot steps search.
The soul is stumbled n fall down.

Faith rises it up

the dawn then comes
Bathes the soul with its red light n heal all its wounds

The sun rises..

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Your smile.. your laughter.. they really consoles me. Nothing better than that.. thank you. Keep being spirited!

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Loser n winner

It's wat I have thought from the frst.. I will only make you lose one day..

You are the winner. I am a loser..

First thought to let you go..
Realize it xue..

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Notes n words - one ok rock

I wanna dance like no one's watching me
I wanna love like it's the only thing I know
I wanna laugh from the bottom of my heart
I wanna sing like every single note and word
it's all for you
Is this enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I
know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and
say
That you finally see, what I see

Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit
brighter from your love

I wanna dance the nights away with you
I wanna love because you taught me to
I wanna laugh all your tears away
I wanna sing 'cause every single note and
word it's just for you
Hope it's enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I
know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and
say
That you finally see, how I feel

Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit
brighter from you love

Not a day goes by that I don't think
About you and the love you've given me
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit
brighter from your love
Life is just so much better from your love.

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One day

One day if your feeling to me gone, I want to come to you. Come as someone else. I can be anything, from friend to servant. Bcoz I want to be close to you. Ensure that you are okay...

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Saturday, September 7, 2013

Soledad

Why is it so hard to be sincere to love you. Im still thinkin of you n want you. And im so sad..

Forgive me for having this feeling to you..

A song before I sleep.. a song sthat describes my selfish feeling of wanting you..

Soledad

If only you could see the tears in the world
you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more
time

Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to REALIZE
You're a loss I can't replace

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad

In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me

Soledad
Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be

I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I conceal the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me

Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me

Soledad

Time will never change the things you've told
me
After all we're meant to be
love will bring us
back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me

Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

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c... maaf kan aku...

malam minggu seperti ini, biasanya kita melewatkannya bersama. makan malam, bercerita dan mengarungi jalanan malam sambil kau memelukku. kenangan itu mana mungkin bs aku lupakan.

saat ini, aku hanya bisa bercerita disini. berharap kau tau bahwa aku sangat merindukanmu. namun aku tau, bahwa tak layak lagi untukku bercerita semua ini. ya, aku sangat egois. aku sangat menginginkanmu dalam hidupku. padahal ku tau kau bukan milikku. dan aku hanya selalu menyakitimu, dan cinta sejatimu disana.

aku tau, kata maaf, air mata, dan apapun juga tak akan bs membuatmu kembali. tapi ijinkanlah aku untuk tetap dapat melihatmu dan menyayangimu. seperti janjiku dlu.. aku ingin mencintaimu sampai akir hidupku kelak. aku ingin setia padamu. entah apa yang akan terjadi kelak. aku akan berusaha.

c, jangan lagi kau sedih. aku selalu menyayangimu. aku tau ada hal tak pantas yg ku lakukan. namun di hatiku, hanhya terukir namamu.

aku malu pada diriku... kau sangat kuat. kau juga berpendirian teguh, tak tergoyahkan oleh apapun, termasuk kata2 dariku, air mataku, dan apapun juga. berbeda denganku. aku sungguh lemah di depanmu. dan aku lah yang lebih sering merengek padamu untuk kembali...

c, terimakasih selama ini kau sangat menyayangiku. banyak hal yang kau lakukan untukku. akan kusimpan pemberian2mu. semua itu akan menjadi kekuatanku, untuk aku melangkah ke depan. dengan itu, aku merasa bahwa kau berada dekatku. menemaniku kemanapun ku pergi.

c, aku memang ga layak untukmu. kembalilah pada cinta sejatimu. ia pasti sangat merindukan mu. ia pasti sangat memikirkanmu. aku sungguh bersalah padanya. bahkan semua kebahagiaanku pun mungkin tidak akan cukup untuk meminta maaf.

c, aku lemah c... aku terlalu menginginkanmu... maafkan aku jika hingga kapanpun, aku masih tetap seperti ini...

c, jgn sedih ya c.... banyak alasan untukmu bahagia..
dari awal, kita sepakat untuk belajar bersama. entah apa yg telah kau pelajari. namun semoga itu membuat mu menjadi lebih baik dan lebih dewasa dalam menjalani hidup.
sama sepertiku yg banyak belajar tentang menjadi setia, jujur, dan mencintaimu dengan tulus.

c... thank you very much... that you made my life so alive.

semangat c! :'D

Kusimpan semuanya

Saat2 pertama melihatmu, msh sgt kental terekam dlm ingatanku...

Hingga beberapa bln stlhnya, kita slg mbgenal. Dan memulai smua ini..

Dan akirnya, kau ingin aku pergi..

Semua kan selalu trsimpan dg rapat dlm pkiranku.. dan kurasakan dlm hatiku.. setiap hal, baik suka dan duka yg prnh kita lalui.

:')

C.. thx for all those things. Everything you did to me, no matter what, has made me live for real. That now, I need no other thing nomore.

Thx.. you left me with all those beautiful memories..

Thx for loving me.. I love you too..

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I can love you

Though I cant see you
Though I cant have you
I can feel you
I can love you

Does everythin have a meaning?
For all of those days i've been trying
And here I keep on waiting
Of something that will unever come...

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Seperti

Sperti cahaya kau mnerangi hdpku yg gelap.
Sprti air kau mnyegarkan jiwaku yg gersang.
Terimakasih untuk cintamu padaku..

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Dr hatiku

Apa kabarnya ya..? Blm ada 1 hari tp aku ud kwtr. Aku tau ada sseorg ug dkt dgnnya. Tp apakah ia bs bnr2 bahagia?

Smg ia baik2 saja.. slalu ceria dan tak kurang satu apapun.
Smg ia jg bahagia dan jd org yg lbh baik lg.
Smg tdk ada lg air mata
Smg ia tdk susah lg..
Dab hdup dg lbh tenang.

Jagalah dia, Tuhan. Tuntunlah dy. Peluk dia saat dingin dtg. Dan angkt smua beban d hdupnya.

Dan biarlah ia kembali pd cinta sejatinya. Cinta yg mnunggunya jauh dsna...

Hapuskanlah aku dr dlm hati dan pkiranya agar ia tak lg mnderita krn ku yg tak layak ini.

Dan utku.. jagalah prasaan ini tetap d hatiku. Ckp d hati ku saja.

Dan prmohonanku yg trakir, mampukanku utk mnjga prasaan ini, hingga khdupan slnjutnya. Dan biarkn kami brtemu dan slg mncintai lg.. dlm kondsi yg Kau kehendaki..

Trmksh Tuhan.. kau sungguh baik..

Amin

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Promises

Not to leave you despite ur childishness

To be loyal to you

To only love you

Not to be angry for you

Not to contact persons in my past

Not to repeat my mistakes

Those all things I promised to you

And that you love me

That's the only thing I keep in my mind.. as you ever told me..

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What I can only do

Why..? Why I can't hate you? Why I dont blame you? I want sometimes. Even i have the rights to do that. But everytime im about to do that, I remember your face. How u really care for me. How u cry for me. And what I can only do is loving you..

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Friday, September 6, 2013

C. Smgt!

C.. smgt y c. :)

Smw akn baik2 aj. Jgn lp doakan kita brdua.

C.. susah kali aku utk g mkirin kau..
Maaf y C..

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Smg..

Ngntuk C aku. Bnget. Mataku ud g kuat. Lu tdr jg ya. :') smg kita ktmu dlm mmpi ya.. rinduu. :(

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Let us

Gudnite. Let's meet in dream. :')

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jangan lupa makan

C, jgn lp makan ya. jgn sampe perutnya mual lagi. dan jgn sampai ga makan lagi kek kemarin. sedih bgt liatnya.. sama jgn makan bnyk sambal ya. baik2 disana. 

xue, dont worry...

im sorry that i always trouble you. even it always takes me long time to leave your place. i act like a sick man. crying here and there. begging for mercy. rolling on the floor like a child.
i just want to make sure that you'd be okay after i leave. i just want to know that you won't be sad without me before i leave your room... i want to see no tears in your eyes when im not there anymore...

i always worry of you. i feel like you'll be sad if im not around. i feel like you feel so lonely if you can't see me...

i think that with me, you will always be happy.

but turn out maybe that's just wrong now... maybe you're really okay without me.. maybe you're happier without me...

C, im trying not to come to you anymore... as you said and as i promised... i'll make effort of it. at least i know that there is one man, though he's so far from here, he always looks after you. even better than me. he never makes you cry. he never dissapoints you. he never put you in trouble. even he warms you. he comforts you. helps you to be someone better...

xue, dont worry.. she's okay now. a good man is looking after her with care and love. he can make her okay and comfort. what else you should worry now? dont be a trouble for her anymore... dont be it... stop making her sad...

dont worry, xue... someone is keeping her with so much care...


love alone

she's just too good for you...
you just dont deserve her...

so xue, pls stop chasing..
you're only trouble...

nothing else you can give but trouble... 

xue.. her life with you will only be hell... 
no happiness
no meaning
no future

realize that.. stop wanting her..
she's not yours
and never in this life...
just let her go..

love her alone.. 
love her alone..
if you really want to really love her, xue...


worry

entah kenapa saat ini aku merasa tidak enak. seperti sangat kawatir dan tidak tenang. apa kau baik2 aja disana? baru beberapa jam padahal dan tadi pagi aku bisa merasa tenang.

kalau ada apa2, hubungi aku ya. kalo memang kau ga mau, jangan ragu2 hubungi orang2 terdekat mu. jgn sampai terjadi apa2.

:(

semoga kau baik2 saja... 

smile ^_^

hey you. smile! :)

it's okay! nothing chance but how we meet. only that changes. others don't.

so, just be happy. be spirited!

if you feel so worry.. feel so lonely.. just close your eyes and think about me. and say a prayer.

but more than that, you can think about your real love. who's waiting there loyally. with all of the faith in you.

and don't worry of me. i am okay. since i know, you have someone way better than me. someone who can guide you to the light.

=============================

damn... why this song again. you know, suddenly "you were trouble when you walked in" played.. -__-

and i remember you again. and those times. lol. forget that.

=============================

smile! okay? ^_^ yeaaah!

real relationship with you

cannot be together doesn't mean that we dont love each other...

but one day, you have to stop loving me.. and going back to your real love...
maybe this is what i have to understand. you are not mine. and im not created for you.

that's what i have to realize.. and understand that this feeling can only be kept in my chest, in my heart...

now i will begin the real relationship with you.. where it's only pure love that i have. not just wanting you.


don't be sad

i just felt relieved that you wouldn't be so sad when you asked me to leave... but this evening, i suddenly felt that you are in a deep sorrow...

are you okay?

i really want to be with you. to accompany you in every single step of your life...

now that i promised not to come again... i feel so worry.. who will be the one who will make effort to understand all of your thoughts and words.

are you so lonely? me too. only with you, i can feel all of the worlds in me.

don't be sad... im here.. my feeling is just the same. from the beginning to the endless end.

i will always love you.. my way... 

Selamat malam

malam ini
sunyi sepi
kau terlena
dalam mimpikau tersenyum

kedamaian
menikmati
cinta kira

Malam ini
sunyi sepi
bermimpilah
tentang cinta

Ku ingin selalu
bersamamu
di sisimu

slamat malam
oh cintaku

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Thursday, September 5, 2013

Black tears

Even if I cry black tears and scream, tomorrow will come with an unfamiliar face..

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im a lil bit...

im a lil bit relieved that there is someone will take care of you. even way better than me. 
now i just can pray that you will not sad again. and you can forget me... :')

maybe i should surrender you... since all what i offer now is going to be a trash...  i just dont deserve you... 

for you... it's okay for me to love alone... bcoz of you... i can truly love...

dont worry, you're gonna be okay. without me. even you'll be better... without me. 


thx God

love you and beloved by you.. is all i need in my life. and it's done. thank you God! :')

now

how can i erase this feeling?
if i never want to erase it
if i want it to be forever
if it's the most true feeling i ever felt
if it's too deep planted in my heart
if it's all of my life?

but how can i keep this feeling when it hurts the one i love the most?

i love you... that's all i can say.. though so many doubts in you now..

now, i just want to see you happy. want to see you live. want to see you free. i dont want you to cry anymore bcoz of me. since i know im unworthy for you.

now if i love you, i can only deliver myself as trash..

i know.. all my words are useless now. all i will do will never make you back to me...

but i only want to say.. that i only love you... life and death.

what can i do?

old one mistake, wipes all things.. now i can only regret. a neverending regret..

what can i do now? 

cry?

beg?

say sorry?

i dont know..

i can't do anything...

bcoz my life's gone...

what's left is only a body.. without soul.. 

i love you... and it;s only you... can you feel it?

Why?

Loving me.. what else you can get? it only brings sadness, dissapointment, and pain

Loving me.. what is the meaning of it? It only means to have no future

Loving me.. is nothing but tears..

But why you still love me..?
Why..?

I am a devil who speaks thousands lies. Who is unloyal. Who is failed in everything. Who trap u on the darkness..

Why?

Why do you still love me?

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Thx God

God.. thx for the angel whom you let to fall. To light this devil's heart..

Now You r taking it back. Please take it on the right place. The place where it belongs. The warm n peaceful place. Where smile is brought. And spirit is risen.

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Unworthy son

Di kmr kcl ini
Aku mnangis
Hatiku brteriak

Betapa aku tidak brguna..
Aku mulai memandang hdpku k blkg
Yg kutinggalkan hanyalah kelecewaan dan kesedihan utk stiap org yg mnyayangiku.. bhkn yg plg ku syg..

Aku kini takut.. jika aku mlgkh, hnya hal yg sama yg kutingglkan..
Ini prtma kalinya aku tdk ingin hdp lg.
Aku hnyalah aib keluarga.
Aku hnyalah org yg gagal
Bhkn aku melukai org2 yg mnygiku.

Tuhsn.. maafkn aku.. aku gagal dlm stiap hal. Bhkn mngcewakan tiap org.

Mom, forgive me for being such a kid. I never make u happy. I cant fulfill ur dream.

Dad.. im sorry that im not a man like you.

Sist.. im not a gud bro. I even never speak nixely to you..

C... im not a gud man for u. It doesn't mater wat I do, I end up making u cry..

God.. im your unworthy son.. i've lost..

Anyone.. wat else can you hope from me.. ?

Im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry..

Forgive me...

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I can only love you

Baru 2 hr yg lalu gw dgr lgu china ini. Liriknya sgt indh. Dan aku ingin skali kau tau C. Tp aku brpkir bhw lgu ini lbh tpat kusampaikan pdmu saat kita brpisah nanti. Dan aku brpkir bhwa itu msh akn sgt lm.

Tp trnyta, hanya 1hari lbh sdkt, lg ini aku sampaikan pdmu..

Ini smw brsl dr hatiku yg plg dlm.. dr hati seorang iblis yg brhasil mnmukan cahaya yg slma ini ia cari.. cahaya dr malaikat yg trjatuh..

I can only love you by peng qing

When you held firm of my hand
I decided to go with you
Regardless of how many setbacks we would
go through
I would never back away
When all the rivers flow backward
I will still be by your side
Be with you to the end of the time
Even if one day
The sky and the land separate
I will never abandon you
I will be with you
For you, I can
Because loving you, I can only love you
Life wipes clean in the reincarnation
You are the only unforgettable memory
To have truly loved
Is the only way one could have truly lived
Love you, never letting you go from now on
The promise that did not fade
Lasts longer than forever
I have been hurt, have cried, have hated
But I never considered giving up
Don't ask me for a reason
Love is everything to me
This life or the next, you are the unchanging
wait
Even if the world
Becomes your enemy
I still want to hold you tight
Not a drop of tear
For you, I can
Because loving you, I can only love you
As long as it's for you, I'm willing
To sacrifice everything, and I wouldn't regret
it
To have truly loved
Is the only way one could have truly lived
Love you, nothing to ask for from now on...

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Monday, August 19, 2013

Blind and deaf

We are mute.. im blind and you're deaf.

It's really hard for us to communicate. But we speak thru the touch, see n hear with our heart. And that's how we can easily love each other.

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Sunday, August 18, 2013

Know u

What I dont know about you? Even I know every lil lie or something you hid from me. :)

You dont need to be secretive w/ me. I can take every truth n won't get mad. I love you, u know?

So just share me everything. :)
I just love to hear much about you.

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Friday, August 16, 2013

Our time

Meeting you that time was for sure the best beginning for my life.

With you I feel so complete that I really dont want n need anything but you.

Thx for all the moments we spent.

Sad or happy is not the most important thing of our moments. Wat's important is that we feel it together.

C.. I know im not ur future in this life. But I believe that one life, we will be unseparable. And stand tall. Even if the sky falls.

God, thx.

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Thanks

I can only hope n believe in it. The result is absolutely yours.

But thanks...

Thanks that you always care of me.. thx.. :')

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Gudnite!

C.. ud mkan nih. Mo tdr. Crt2 dlu sm dedihut. Sdr jdinya bsk mlm ksni. Hha.

Pst ud tdr y? Hhe. Tdr yg nyenyak ya.

13 hari lg!!!! Hiiiiii! Snang bgt aku.

C.. :') mksh ya.

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Aaah

Cccccc!! XD. Ni gw lg tgu bli sate sm dedihud. Td kt dedihud dy chat sm abg lu biar balik bareng aaarght. Hha.

Pst hbs ni lu repot diintrogasi. XD.

Smgt ya! Hha. Hbs ni mo diajk sdr lg. To gtau sih. Cpek.

Smgt y dsn!!! Syg c. :*
Ni balik gw.

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Thursday, August 15, 2013

All im thinking is you

Im playing vadminton now. But all im thinking about is you. Let your spirit come, accompany me play and let me do my best for you.

C.. I dont know what's u r doin. But i dont be sad. Dont be worry. We may not be able to be together this life. But let's pray that we will meet again in other story. I will wait.. and wait.. and wait...

I will wait you c... :')

I never regret to know you... to love you.

C.. let's meet one day.. in a promised rime and place. One day
. One life...

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You are here!!

Damn! You are here. Following me everywhere I go. You know that I just heard taylor swift song you used to play for me? Damn it really feels like you were here. And all the songs I heard were about my feeling right now.

Thx that your soul is still here.
Wait for me return! We'll go home together. Thnk you C!

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Only you n me

The different between you and all persons I have loved before are that I never want to forget you n I want to keep you in me forever. Not like it's before when I tried to forget them. That's why im like this. You are just irreplaceable. :)

And you love me always.

That's what people never know. They just dont know us. They are just jealous.

But I won't blame them.

Im just so happy that we are one. Not in place, in time, on words, on acts, but in our feeling that's safely hidden in our heart. That nothing can interrupt it.

Forever...

Thx for loving me.

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Lumayan

Sepi bgt siiang ini, c. G kmn2 smp sore ntr. Cm bli mkn pcel lele pagi td. 12rb. Dibungkus. Rasanya enk yg d jogja. Hha

Td dedihud WA gw. Ntr mlm gw diajk bdmnton d depok. Gw ntr dsuruh bonceng dy. Cpek dy keknya krn lg puasa hr ini. Lmyn lah buat mnghibur dr, c. Hhe.

C, jgn lp mkn y, c. Ingt psen2 gw jg. Istrht yg ckup. Baik2 dsna n jgn nkal. Smgt trs! Hhe.

Jm satu lbh mo cari bkso. Smg ad ya.

Gbu, c! :)

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My last breathe

If this love will only hurt all people.. i willing to surrender it. I dont want to hurt others since I really know how painful it is.

I have known exactly.. that sun always shines on me.. and that's enough. I ll never feel so cold anymore since I can feel its warmth.

I know there are so much tears now. But I belive that it's a beginning for a beautiful neverending.

Let me love in my heart. Let I live with memories. Let we meet thru dreams. And let me hold on this faith. So that it can last forever until the time we can really be together.

I ll never be tired to wait you
Even if it's acrossing life n deaths
My feeling will remain the same
That I love you... and it's so painfully true...

I miss you...
See you..

Your love inmate,
Your laughter n tears,
Your shadow n devil,
Your love n hate,
Xue...

I m deeply missing you...

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Let me see...

My heart feels so empty
It's hollow
I begin to feel nothing as the days passed

Sun, shine your light to my heart
Let me see that my love is still there living in me
Waiting to my return...

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You are to me

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.

I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night

For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...

For a friend, for love...

I turn to you - christina aguilera

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Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Aku mau tdr

C.. aku mau tdr c. Aku ud g kuat lg. Slmt tdr y. Smgt. Mimpi indah. Gbu! Syg c...

C.. dtg y k mimpi ku mlm ini. Aku rindu kali sm kau.. :'( mksh..

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Patiently..

C n C, your love will live forever. Just wait patienly until the next life...

You hace known it. so stop crying... and live again!

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Accept it..

Dika.. dont be like this.. you must accept it... that's the only way... that's not ur sun...

You are strong dika.. why need to be like this..? Accept it.. just accept it..

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Semus ngert

Ya.. spertinya dunia ini jg ngrti prasaan gw c.. barusan ge kluar mkan trs k alfamart. Dsna diputar lg cinta sejati... :'(

Gw gtau hrs blg gmn k lu c... gw g brani blg sluruh prsaan gw ini. Lu ud sm dy skrg... gw hrs bs tgar c... udah dlu c.. gw mau cb tdr lg... c.. c...

C...
C...
C...
I love u..

C loves C

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Pusing

C.. gw pusing bgt c gtau knp.. mna dedihud g ksni mlm ini krn ud dsni dr siang..

Doakan gw smg gpp ya. Lu jg baik2 dsn. Jg kshtn ya.

C.. lu msh kwtr g klo gw knp2? Maaf y c. Gw slalu blg klo gw gni. Gtau lg gw mo blg ksp. Lu satu2ny yg plg gw andalon c. N slalu ad buat gw.

C.. smgt y dsna.. jgn sdh. Gbu c! Syg c.. :')

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Visa gw jd

Akirnya visa gw jd c! Yeyeye! XD. Tp msh hrs tgu visanya clar. Huhu.

Btw, pusing kpla gw. Gtau knp. Tp snang gw ud kelar visanya.

O ya, lu lg ap? Lg sm Kj kah? Enjoy ya! Hrs have fun tiap hr. Hhe.

Kpn kbarin gw c? :( mo bli tiket sblm k india. Ato ntr mintol dedihud aj.

O y, hr ini fun g? Smg fun y. Ah.. susah jg g ad kbr dr lu n sm skali gbs kontak lgs.

Btw, mksh ya. Msh mau syg. Br aj rasa syg lu samp sni. :/ hha.

Ok. Have fun ya! Gbu!

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Dead letters

Maybe all I wrote here will only be dead letters... the letters which never get to its destination...

But I hope my feeling to you can search you n get to you. And let u feel it too like I feel how u feel for me..

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Pulang jogja

C.. kau bngung ya mau plg gmn.? klo plg sm aku, pasti kau repot... ntr naik bus dan sbagainya bw koper. Mana kalau sore macet.. aku kshn sm kau klo hrs gt. Bus jg pnuh psti. Risiko besat. Blm lg kalau capek.

C.. gw lg brusaha keras c spy gw bs tulus. Walau fisik lu g ad, tp knangan n rs syg lu bkal ad tmani gw.. gw bkl brusaha c spy gw bs. Lu skrg ud balik samanya jg..

C.. mksh y c.. pkirkan baik2. Gw slalu ykin lu pst plg brg gw.. tp td aku tau klo kau bngung.. jgn repotkan dirimu lg demi aku c.. kau lbh bnyk sdh kan sm aku.. :'(

C.. aku akn brusaha c.. jgn kwtr lg. Aku gni krn aku syg kali sm kau. Bukan krn aku ragu.. c..

C.. rindu aku c.. maaf aku msh gni.. aku lg brusaha c..

C.. tgl 21 pagi aku brkt k india. Stlh itu, mgkn gw gbs ksh kbr lg. Dan saat itu, cm rasa prcaya alat komunikasi kita...

C.. :')

It doesn't matter if time changes from day to night, the sun is always there.. and shadow hids there, waiting for the light arrived...

C.. I love u.. :') truly...

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Ambil paket

C!!!! Gmn kbrnya? Smg baik ya!

Td pg aku ambil paket d tiki. Trnyta paketnya bkn d tiki yg aku cr td mlm. Tp lbh jauh. Akirnya aku mintol mb E dtg stgh jam lbh awal utk pnjm mtor.

Nah gw cr jln sdr n tanya2. Utg jlnnya g trlalu susah. Cm plgnya bingung krn beda jln. Masa aku masuk dr jln mana pulang lwt jln mana. XD

Hbd ambl paket gw jg hrs cr wrnet n print. Itu jg putar2 dl. Tp akirnya dpt n jm 11 slese bkin visa. Tp krn bsk lbur, visanya clar br bs diambl jumat. Aku jg plg jumat mlm. Smg lncar smw.

Waaaa! Tinggl 14 hr lagi C!! G sbr. XD.

Ni br mkn td. Dbungkus kna 9rb. Lauk kerang n telor n sayur sawi. Enk bgt! Hhe.

Hbs ni mo nnton tv ato tdr. Sm psn tiket ke dedihud.

C, hrs smgt ya!!! Mksh c, syg bgt n rindu bgt e.. :')

See ya doon! Gbu!

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C... 14hr lg... kau blm ad kbr.... mgkn aku hrs lbh sabar ya hdup bgini? Mgkn dg cr ini, kau lbh baik n nyman y?

C oh c.. kau ni.. hahaha. Enth knp gmn pun prlakuan kau, aku tetap syg bgt. Bntuk rasa syg kita beda bgt ya.. tp, syg tetaplah syg dan aku bs mrasakannya. :)

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Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Prayer..

God.. if I cant be with her, my sun.. just let me live with my sun forever thru the memories, dreams, and faith that the sun always shines on me...

Let them all accompany me for the rest of my life. Lrt them walk with me in this lonely road...

Be happy sun! You have had the best for you now.. the real person te with you..

Amen..

C, gw tdr skrg. Slmt tdr c.. Gbu

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C.. rindu.. :'(

C.. rindu bgt e.. mau nntn tv dl biar g trlalu sepi.. kau tmani y drsn.. biar cpt tdr. :)

C.. mksh y...

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C.. rindu e

C.. :( rindu kali aku g ad kau.. pngn kontk lgs tp ud gbs. Skrg gw cm bs brpgangn sm rasa prcy gw c. Udah mkin dkat pula sm hr kita plg k jgj. Tp blm ad kbr ttg itu.

Sblm k india, aku mo bli tiket plg. Tp bth data2 mu. :( gmn y??

O ya.. kau rindu jg g? Lg nntn film d antv.. film cnta gt. Ah.. hahaha. Jd suami ditinggl istrinya mati n dia bs liat hntu istrinya. N cm dy yg bs liat istrinya. Bnyk org yg kira dy gila krn dkira ngbrl sdr. Tp ad lcunya jg. XD. Ckp mnghbur.

Tp tiap mlm tntonan gw slalu mngena bgt n ccok sm ap yg gw rasain. :(

C.. aku hrs kuat c.. kau sdg bahagia dg nya.. aku jg tau klo kau msh syg n akn slalu gt. Tp mmg sm dialah ms dpanmu. Aku bngung aku hrs gmn.

C..pcy y sm aku. Jgn liat aku sbgai pnipu lg..:( aku bs kuat gni krn aku tau c kau syg bgt smku. Tp mmg kau dtkdrkn bkn smku.. dan plg g, kau hepi sm dy c. Jd wlo aku sdh gbs sm mu, aku bahagia kau baik2 aj.

Tp aku rndu e.. maaf y c...

15 hr lg c.. kita bs ktmu.. smgt!

Oya hbs ini mo tdr. Slmt tdr y. Jgn tdr kmlaman. Hhe. Tdr nyenyak ya! Tmani aku tdr y lwt mimpi. :')

Gbu!

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Bangkrut

C... rndu kali aku c.. kau g ad ksh kbr.. tp gpp sih. Pst lg have fun sm Kj ya? Hha.

barusan gw cari jln mnuju tiki krn hrs ambl paket bsk. Trnyta mb E g gt jauh dr tmpt dadyhud. Kntornya mlh dkt bgt sm kos. Jd td aku mnt tlg dy. Bsk mo pnjm mtornya jg. Hho!

Td kita jg k mall. Nah.. T.T mkn hbs 47rb. Nasi hainam cmpur. Ad sate babinya jg. Hha. Enak tp bkin eneg. Bnyk bgt lauknya. Daging2 doank.

Bankrut aku. Hha.

Mkn ap c td? Hr ini ngoain aj? :(

Sepi kali dsni c.. smg mau tmani lg.. smgt y c! Smg smw yg lu lakukan lncar n fun y! Baik2 y. Syg c.. Gbu.

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Lapar

C, gmn kbr kau? Baik2 ya. Jgn lp mkan siang. Hhe

C, aku lpar kali e. Td pg g mkn. Ni td siang mo mkan tp pnuh smw krn jm istrht kntor. Tpbntr lg mo mkan.

O ya, kmrn mkan kena 18 rb. Lauknya ikan mujair pdas, kikil n syur daun pepaya n es teh d warteg. Hha!!

Ok, C. Aku mkn dl ya! Kau smgt y. Jgn sdh. :D gkita hrs smgt! Yeah! X_x

Syg C. :*

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Yeah!

Heeeyy C!! Snang bgt aku td lncar apply visanya. Cm bbrp mnit. Bsk sore mo ambl visanya.

Nah tp tmnku si clar blm berea krn dy g ksh pspornya. Jd dy mo kirim. Jd plg cpt jumat br bs plg. Telat2nya senin. Krn kmis kdutaan ttup. Huhu.. pdhl rbu gw k india.

Lg ap kau??? Ksh kbr dund. Pngn tau jg aku kau gmn. Smg baik2 y kau dsn.

Ni gw lg d kos brg dadyhut. Malah tduran n g balik krja. -_-

Blm mkan aku c.. mau siang aj sm mlm. Mlm mo k mall soalnya. XD. Jd ngirit dl. XD.

Mksh y c. Smg cpt jumpa d tmpt dadthut. Ntr bs jln2. Hha!

Smgr n Gbu!

Salam rindu mnggebugebu! -_-

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Smangat pagi!!!

Smangat pagi!!! Yeah! (mnghibur dr.. xD)

Pagi C! :D gmn kbrmu hr ini? Smg dasyat luar biasa yes3x ya!

Pg2 ud dgr lg korea yg asik2. Jd lmyn smgt! Aplg td mlm kita ktmu dlm mimpi. Pst kau kngn bgt y? Hha. Sama dong! XD.

Ntr jm 9 mau k kdutaan. Deg2an. Kmrn aj ktmu stpam cew nya udh serem. Smg lncr ya.

Lg ap skrg? Mkn n nnton y? Ud hafal aku. Hha.

Bntr lg mo mndi. Keknya gush sarapan. Ntr mlm mo jln sm tmn cew sblh rmh trs sm sdr. Jd hrs siap scr finansial. XD. Tp g ad kau ttp aj sepi kali dunia ini trsa.

Smg kau hr ini jg fun ya! Gw baik2 aj. Lu jg hrs gt. Ok, smgt ya! Syg bgt e sm C! :*

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I cant deny

Entah saat aku dlm kondisi bgoni, aku slalu g sengajs dgr lgu2 yg nadanya bgs n liriknya lmyn cocok. Hahaha.

Slh satunya kmrn sblm dy konta, aku dgr acars musik n isinya lgu2 korea ttg patah hati. Slh satu yg aku sk nadanya adl lgnya sistar.

Ya. Saat sepi dan ksepian, kdg aku kehilangan kprcayaanku pdnya kmdn brsedih.

Tp saat mngingat btpa dy sgt mnyayangi tunanganya, aku sdar bhw peranku mgkn mmg sdh hbs dan sampai dsni sj. Dan aku sudah sgt amat snang bs mlakukan bnyk hal dgnya. Dan aku bahagia mlihatnya brdua dg yg ia cintai sesungghnya..

Yea, but sometimes I just can' drny that I feel like llosing you...

Hha. Mo bagi lirik aj bnyk omg gw. XD

The song...

Gone not around any longer - sistar

English Translation:
I didn’t know we would break up so easily
My tears won’t stop flowing
In my bathroom your toothbrush was here
then gone
Your strong scent was here then gone
I just wanted to say that I love you
But your number is disconnected now
The pictures in the frame were here then
gone
Fallen hair were here then gone
Walking on the road with an empty mind
As tears keep flowing down
I can’t brethe now that you’re now longer
here
I can’t even stay because you aren’t with me
I am slowly dying but you’re not here
Anymore anymore anymore
I can’t smile because you’re no longer here
Because you’re not here
I hate seeing myself break down
I have nowhere to depend on now
Why am I withering away like a fool
everyday?
Like a darkened flower, without you, I just
Keep saying it’s painful, sad, alone
I fall asleep again crying
I hate to see myself get drunk and stumble
Can’t fight with you even if I want to now
Because you’re gone, because you’re gone
I got no one to talk to now
I can’t brethe now that you’re now longer
here
I can’t even stay because you aren’t with me
I am slowly dying but you’re not here
Anymore anymore anymore
I can’t smile because you’re no longer here
Because you’re not here
I hate seeing myself break down
I have nowhere to depend on now
Because you are not around any longer
Please come back to me

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Monday, August 12, 2013

Smgt dika!

Smgt dika! Ga ada mimpi yg ga berakhir. So ini saatnya bangun dan hidup d dunia nyata! Bnyk org yg menantimu! Dan jika kau merindukannya, tidurlah. Dan kau bs kmbali brmimpi!

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You have everything

Kau memiliki pasangan yg benar, kau memiliku diriku seutuhnya, kau memiliki kluarga yg dekat, kau memiliki tman yg peduli, kau pintar, cerdas, pnampilan mnarik, brbskat, dan kau memilikiNya.

Apalagi yg perlu kau sedihkan? :) smgt n Gbu!

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You never leave, always in my heart...

You are alawys in my heart. Even you ooften appear in my mind and visit me in my dreams.. you are so close to me. And you love me. What else I need to worry..?

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Ah, God

Ah.. ya. Gw tau dy syg bgt k gw. Trnyt mmg bkn krn kkurangnku ato kechildishannya. Tp krnMu Tuhan..

Wlopun ia msh ttp sama sifatnya. Mudah skali trsulut. Sigh...

God.. ajari aku utk jd lbh baik lg dan bs mnerima smuanya. Apa yg salah dr diriku yg aku tak tau, kau mau tunjukkan. Aku ingn bljr Tuhan... :')

Thx utknya jg Tuhan. Thx for the beautiful sin that You let me to feel.. thx.. that i've been a human n knows what love is. Thx.. jaga kami Tuhan. :')

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Hari ini

Hey c, aku uda d kos tmnmu. Baik dy ya. Td aku nail trans jkt n kbablasan 1 halte. Trs dy cari pdhl aku ud balik d halte yg bnr. Tp akirnya ktm jg.

Aku d kosnya sdr skrg. Dy hrs jagain calonnya. Jd cm bs tmani d saat2 trntu. Kmarnya lmyn luas. Kmr mndi dlm n kasurnya springbed. Ad tv jg. Lptopnya rsk dan td mo dbwakan lptop kntornya. Tp lp. Hha. Baik bgt ye.

Skrg lg sdr nih. Untg hp bs ol. Td aku k kdutaan tp ud ttup gr2 lm d busway. Jdnya bsk lg ksna. Smg lncar y.

O ya, lg ap? Rindu bgt. Pst lg nnton. Hha. Slmt nnton y. Gw jg lg nnton iklan2. XD.

O ya, td ngbrol dkit klo kita mo ktmu dsini utk plg brg. Hha. Dy k bali trnyta mau lburan. XD.

Hmm.. maaf kmrn g ad kontk sn skali. Smg yg gw lkukan kmrn bnar y. Wlopun endingnya kita gni lg.. smg kmrn n skrg lu lg ngtes gw ya. Gw kngn bgt pngn kontak. Tp pngn jg nurut kt2 lu.

Ah.. smgt ajalah kita ya! Bntr lg kan ktmu n bs main d jkt dl brg. Ntr sm ayahut ya. Jln2. Dkat sni ad mall.

Btw, lm bgt aku ktik d hp tp br jln 15 mnt. XD. Lm bgt wktu brlalu klo gni. Hha.

Ok. Ntr aku kbarin lg ya. Baik2 dsna n have fun. Ingt lgunya BCL yg cinta sejati ya. G prlu kwtr lg. We're sooo close. Gw bs mrasakannya. Krn itu gw bs sdkt tnang. See ya soon, C. :)

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Tes

C, lg ap? Aku lg tes aplikasi blogger utk android nih. Warnet dkat sni tutup. :(

Ok, sgni dlu. Klo brhsl, ntr lgs update. :)

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love is blind

i trust you with my all.
and that will always be...

and even if the future was really just a dream
i would keep walking forward

with all my faith
with all my memories
with all this love

that's why i can still go on up til now.
and that will never change...

if you won't come today, you may be going to come tomorrow, or the day after...
i just believe you will
since i know exactly, that we share the same feeling...

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c.. udah lama bgt kita ga ketemu. bahkan sehari kemarin kita ga ngobrol scr lgs. tp thx ya c, kmu masih mau ngobrol lewat semua updatan mu. gw sneng bgt kmu msh syg n perhatian sm aku. aku percaya itu c. itu knp aku g kawatir slama ini.

skrg aku bnr2 sama skali gbs kontak kamu c. mungkin kmu pngn aku lbh tulus lagi ya, c? haha. iya c. aku akan berusaha utk lbh tulus menyayangimu. tp, aku akan brusaha gmn caranya spy bs kontak kmu lg.

o ya, tinggal bbrp hari lagi ya kita ketemu. ga nyangka waktu berjalan dg cepat. aku rindu kali sm kau. apalagi akir2 ini aku mencoba utk lbh percaya sama kau lg.

btw, kmu lg apa c? pst senang bgt ya bs nonton bnyk acara2 bgus di tv kabel. jgn sdh ya, c. bentar lg kita kan ktmu. nikmatin masa2 kita jauh ini c. masa2 kita saling berusaha utk tetap percaya n menyayngi. lucu jg kita ya c, kalo lagi jauh gini..

hari ini aku mau ke sbank n ke kdutaan c. dsini repot mau kmana2. doakan smg semua lancar ya. kamu jg disana baik2. tetap jaga kesehatan jg.

c, mgkn aku gbs srg ksh kbr lewat sini. tgu kbr ku ya, c. aku jg slalu tgu kabarmu.

senangnyas kita bs ketemu lagi bbrp hari lg. :D

GBU c! smgt!