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Monday, August 19, 2013

Blind and deaf

We are mute.. im blind and you're deaf.

It's really hard for us to communicate. But we speak thru the touch, see n hear with our heart. And that's how we can easily love each other.

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Sunday, August 18, 2013

Know u

What I dont know about you? Even I know every lil lie or something you hid from me. :)

You dont need to be secretive w/ me. I can take every truth n won't get mad. I love you, u know?

So just share me everything. :)
I just love to hear much about you.

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Friday, August 16, 2013

Our time

Meeting you that time was for sure the best beginning for my life.

With you I feel so complete that I really dont want n need anything but you.

Thx for all the moments we spent.

Sad or happy is not the most important thing of our moments. Wat's important is that we feel it together.

C.. I know im not ur future in this life. But I believe that one life, we will be unseparable. And stand tall. Even if the sky falls.

God, thx.

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Thanks

I can only hope n believe in it. The result is absolutely yours.

But thanks...

Thanks that you always care of me.. thx.. :')

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Gudnite!

C.. ud mkan nih. Mo tdr. Crt2 dlu sm dedihut. Sdr jdinya bsk mlm ksni. Hha.

Pst ud tdr y? Hhe. Tdr yg nyenyak ya.

13 hari lg!!!! Hiiiiii! Snang bgt aku.

C.. :') mksh ya.

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Aaah

Cccccc!! XD. Ni gw lg tgu bli sate sm dedihud. Td kt dedihud dy chat sm abg lu biar balik bareng aaarght. Hha.

Pst hbs ni lu repot diintrogasi. XD.

Smgt ya! Hha. Hbs ni mo diajk sdr lg. To gtau sih. Cpek.

Smgt y dsn!!! Syg c. :*
Ni balik gw.

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Thursday, August 15, 2013

All im thinking is you

Im playing vadminton now. But all im thinking about is you. Let your spirit come, accompany me play and let me do my best for you.

C.. I dont know what's u r doin. But i dont be sad. Dont be worry. We may not be able to be together this life. But let's pray that we will meet again in other story. I will wait.. and wait.. and wait...

I will wait you c... :')

I never regret to know you... to love you.

C.. let's meet one day.. in a promised rime and place. One day
. One life...

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You are here!!

Damn! You are here. Following me everywhere I go. You know that I just heard taylor swift song you used to play for me? Damn it really feels like you were here. And all the songs I heard were about my feeling right now.

Thx that your soul is still here.
Wait for me return! We'll go home together. Thnk you C!

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Only you n me

The different between you and all persons I have loved before are that I never want to forget you n I want to keep you in me forever. Not like it's before when I tried to forget them. That's why im like this. You are just irreplaceable. :)

And you love me always.

That's what people never know. They just dont know us. They are just jealous.

But I won't blame them.

Im just so happy that we are one. Not in place, in time, on words, on acts, but in our feeling that's safely hidden in our heart. That nothing can interrupt it.

Forever...

Thx for loving me.

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Lumayan

Sepi bgt siiang ini, c. G kmn2 smp sore ntr. Cm bli mkn pcel lele pagi td. 12rb. Dibungkus. Rasanya enk yg d jogja. Hha

Td dedihud WA gw. Ntr mlm gw diajk bdmnton d depok. Gw ntr dsuruh bonceng dy. Cpek dy keknya krn lg puasa hr ini. Lmyn lah buat mnghibur dr, c. Hhe.

C, jgn lp mkn y, c. Ingt psen2 gw jg. Istrht yg ckup. Baik2 dsna n jgn nkal. Smgt trs! Hhe.

Jm satu lbh mo cari bkso. Smg ad ya.

Gbu, c! :)

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My last breathe

If this love will only hurt all people.. i willing to surrender it. I dont want to hurt others since I really know how painful it is.

I have known exactly.. that sun always shines on me.. and that's enough. I ll never feel so cold anymore since I can feel its warmth.

I know there are so much tears now. But I belive that it's a beginning for a beautiful neverending.

Let me love in my heart. Let I live with memories. Let we meet thru dreams. And let me hold on this faith. So that it can last forever until the time we can really be together.

I ll never be tired to wait you
Even if it's acrossing life n deaths
My feeling will remain the same
That I love you... and it's so painfully true...

I miss you...
See you..

Your love inmate,
Your laughter n tears,
Your shadow n devil,
Your love n hate,
Xue...

I m deeply missing you...

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Let me see...

My heart feels so empty
It's hollow
I begin to feel nothing as the days passed

Sun, shine your light to my heart
Let me see that my love is still there living in me
Waiting to my return...

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You are to me

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.

I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night

For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...

For a friend, for love...

I turn to you - christina aguilera

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Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Aku mau tdr

C.. aku mau tdr c. Aku ud g kuat lg. Slmt tdr y. Smgt. Mimpi indah. Gbu! Syg c...

C.. dtg y k mimpi ku mlm ini. Aku rindu kali sm kau.. :'( mksh..

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Patiently..

C n C, your love will live forever. Just wait patienly until the next life...

You hace known it. so stop crying... and live again!

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Accept it..

Dika.. dont be like this.. you must accept it... that's the only way... that's not ur sun...

You are strong dika.. why need to be like this..? Accept it.. just accept it..

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Semus ngert

Ya.. spertinya dunia ini jg ngrti prasaan gw c.. barusan ge kluar mkan trs k alfamart. Dsna diputar lg cinta sejati... :'(

Gw gtau hrs blg gmn k lu c... gw g brani blg sluruh prsaan gw ini. Lu ud sm dy skrg... gw hrs bs tgar c... udah dlu c.. gw mau cb tdr lg... c.. c...

C...
C...
C...
I love u..

C loves C

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Pusing

C.. gw pusing bgt c gtau knp.. mna dedihud g ksni mlm ini krn ud dsni dr siang..

Doakan gw smg gpp ya. Lu jg baik2 dsn. Jg kshtn ya.

C.. lu msh kwtr g klo gw knp2? Maaf y c. Gw slalu blg klo gw gni. Gtau lg gw mo blg ksp. Lu satu2ny yg plg gw andalon c. N slalu ad buat gw.

C.. smgt y dsna.. jgn sdh. Gbu c! Syg c.. :')

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Visa gw jd

Akirnya visa gw jd c! Yeyeye! XD. Tp msh hrs tgu visanya clar. Huhu.

Btw, pusing kpla gw. Gtau knp. Tp snang gw ud kelar visanya.

O ya, lu lg ap? Lg sm Kj kah? Enjoy ya! Hrs have fun tiap hr. Hhe.

Kpn kbarin gw c? :( mo bli tiket sblm k india. Ato ntr mintol dedihud aj.

O y, hr ini fun g? Smg fun y. Ah.. susah jg g ad kbr dr lu n sm skali gbs kontak lgs.

Btw, mksh ya. Msh mau syg. Br aj rasa syg lu samp sni. :/ hha.

Ok. Have fun ya! Gbu!

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Dead letters

Maybe all I wrote here will only be dead letters... the letters which never get to its destination...

But I hope my feeling to you can search you n get to you. And let u feel it too like I feel how u feel for me..

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Pulang jogja

C.. kau bngung ya mau plg gmn.? klo plg sm aku, pasti kau repot... ntr naik bus dan sbagainya bw koper. Mana kalau sore macet.. aku kshn sm kau klo hrs gt. Bus jg pnuh psti. Risiko besat. Blm lg kalau capek.

C.. gw lg brusaha keras c spy gw bs tulus. Walau fisik lu g ad, tp knangan n rs syg lu bkal ad tmani gw.. gw bkl brusaha c spy gw bs. Lu skrg ud balik samanya jg..

C.. mksh y c.. pkirkan baik2. Gw slalu ykin lu pst plg brg gw.. tp td aku tau klo kau bngung.. jgn repotkan dirimu lg demi aku c.. kau lbh bnyk sdh kan sm aku.. :'(

C.. aku akn brusaha c.. jgn kwtr lg. Aku gni krn aku syg kali sm kau. Bukan krn aku ragu.. c..

C.. rindu aku c.. maaf aku msh gni.. aku lg brusaha c..

C.. tgl 21 pagi aku brkt k india. Stlh itu, mgkn gw gbs ksh kbr lg. Dan saat itu, cm rasa prcaya alat komunikasi kita...

C.. :')

It doesn't matter if time changes from day to night, the sun is always there.. and shadow hids there, waiting for the light arrived...

C.. I love u.. :') truly...

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Ambil paket

C!!!! Gmn kbrnya? Smg baik ya!

Td pg aku ambil paket d tiki. Trnyta paketnya bkn d tiki yg aku cr td mlm. Tp lbh jauh. Akirnya aku mintol mb E dtg stgh jam lbh awal utk pnjm mtor.

Nah gw cr jln sdr n tanya2. Utg jlnnya g trlalu susah. Cm plgnya bingung krn beda jln. Masa aku masuk dr jln mana pulang lwt jln mana. XD

Hbd ambl paket gw jg hrs cr wrnet n print. Itu jg putar2 dl. Tp akirnya dpt n jm 11 slese bkin visa. Tp krn bsk lbur, visanya clar br bs diambl jumat. Aku jg plg jumat mlm. Smg lncar smw.

Waaaa! Tinggl 14 hr lagi C!! G sbr. XD.

Ni br mkn td. Dbungkus kna 9rb. Lauk kerang n telor n sayur sawi. Enk bgt! Hhe.

Hbs ni mo nnton tv ato tdr. Sm psn tiket ke dedihud.

C, hrs smgt ya!!! Mksh c, syg bgt n rindu bgt e.. :')

See ya doon! Gbu!

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C... 14hr lg... kau blm ad kbr.... mgkn aku hrs lbh sabar ya hdup bgini? Mgkn dg cr ini, kau lbh baik n nyman y?

C oh c.. kau ni.. hahaha. Enth knp gmn pun prlakuan kau, aku tetap syg bgt. Bntuk rasa syg kita beda bgt ya.. tp, syg tetaplah syg dan aku bs mrasakannya. :)

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Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Prayer..

God.. if I cant be with her, my sun.. just let me live with my sun forever thru the memories, dreams, and faith that the sun always shines on me...

Let them all accompany me for the rest of my life. Lrt them walk with me in this lonely road...

Be happy sun! You have had the best for you now.. the real person te with you..

Amen..

C, gw tdr skrg. Slmt tdr c.. Gbu

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C.. rindu.. :'(

C.. rindu bgt e.. mau nntn tv dl biar g trlalu sepi.. kau tmani y drsn.. biar cpt tdr. :)

C.. mksh y...

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C.. rindu e

C.. :( rindu kali aku g ad kau.. pngn kontk lgs tp ud gbs. Skrg gw cm bs brpgangn sm rasa prcy gw c. Udah mkin dkat pula sm hr kita plg k jgj. Tp blm ad kbr ttg itu.

Sblm k india, aku mo bli tiket plg. Tp bth data2 mu. :( gmn y??

O ya.. kau rindu jg g? Lg nntn film d antv.. film cnta gt. Ah.. hahaha. Jd suami ditinggl istrinya mati n dia bs liat hntu istrinya. N cm dy yg bs liat istrinya. Bnyk org yg kira dy gila krn dkira ngbrl sdr. Tp ad lcunya jg. XD. Ckp mnghbur.

Tp tiap mlm tntonan gw slalu mngena bgt n ccok sm ap yg gw rasain. :(

C.. aku hrs kuat c.. kau sdg bahagia dg nya.. aku jg tau klo kau msh syg n akn slalu gt. Tp mmg sm dialah ms dpanmu. Aku bngung aku hrs gmn.

C..pcy y sm aku. Jgn liat aku sbgai pnipu lg..:( aku bs kuat gni krn aku tau c kau syg bgt smku. Tp mmg kau dtkdrkn bkn smku.. dan plg g, kau hepi sm dy c. Jd wlo aku sdh gbs sm mu, aku bahagia kau baik2 aj.

Tp aku rndu e.. maaf y c...

15 hr lg c.. kita bs ktmu.. smgt!

Oya hbs ini mo tdr. Slmt tdr y. Jgn tdr kmlaman. Hhe. Tdr nyenyak ya! Tmani aku tdr y lwt mimpi. :')

Gbu!

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Bangkrut

C... rndu kali aku c.. kau g ad ksh kbr.. tp gpp sih. Pst lg have fun sm Kj ya? Hha.

barusan gw cari jln mnuju tiki krn hrs ambl paket bsk. Trnyta mb E g gt jauh dr tmpt dadyhud. Kntornya mlh dkt bgt sm kos. Jd td aku mnt tlg dy. Bsk mo pnjm mtornya jg. Hho!

Td kita jg k mall. Nah.. T.T mkn hbs 47rb. Nasi hainam cmpur. Ad sate babinya jg. Hha. Enak tp bkin eneg. Bnyk bgt lauknya. Daging2 doank.

Bankrut aku. Hha.

Mkn ap c td? Hr ini ngoain aj? :(

Sepi kali dsni c.. smg mau tmani lg.. smgt y c! Smg smw yg lu lakukan lncar n fun y! Baik2 y. Syg c.. Gbu.

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Lapar

C, gmn kbr kau? Baik2 ya. Jgn lp mkan siang. Hhe

C, aku lpar kali e. Td pg g mkn. Ni td siang mo mkan tp pnuh smw krn jm istrht kntor. Tpbntr lg mo mkan.

O ya, kmrn mkan kena 18 rb. Lauknya ikan mujair pdas, kikil n syur daun pepaya n es teh d warteg. Hha!!

Ok, C. Aku mkn dl ya! Kau smgt y. Jgn sdh. :D gkita hrs smgt! Yeah! X_x

Syg C. :*

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Yeah!

Heeeyy C!! Snang bgt aku td lncar apply visanya. Cm bbrp mnit. Bsk sore mo ambl visanya.

Nah tp tmnku si clar blm berea krn dy g ksh pspornya. Jd dy mo kirim. Jd plg cpt jumat br bs plg. Telat2nya senin. Krn kmis kdutaan ttup. Huhu.. pdhl rbu gw k india.

Lg ap kau??? Ksh kbr dund. Pngn tau jg aku kau gmn. Smg baik2 y kau dsn.

Ni gw lg d kos brg dadyhut. Malah tduran n g balik krja. -_-

Blm mkan aku c.. mau siang aj sm mlm. Mlm mo k mall soalnya. XD. Jd ngirit dl. XD.

Mksh y c. Smg cpt jumpa d tmpt dadthut. Ntr bs jln2. Hha!

Smgr n Gbu!

Salam rindu mnggebugebu! -_-

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Smangat pagi!!!

Smangat pagi!!! Yeah! (mnghibur dr.. xD)

Pagi C! :D gmn kbrmu hr ini? Smg dasyat luar biasa yes3x ya!

Pg2 ud dgr lg korea yg asik2. Jd lmyn smgt! Aplg td mlm kita ktmu dlm mimpi. Pst kau kngn bgt y? Hha. Sama dong! XD.

Ntr jm 9 mau k kdutaan. Deg2an. Kmrn aj ktmu stpam cew nya udh serem. Smg lncr ya.

Lg ap skrg? Mkn n nnton y? Ud hafal aku. Hha.

Bntr lg mo mndi. Keknya gush sarapan. Ntr mlm mo jln sm tmn cew sblh rmh trs sm sdr. Jd hrs siap scr finansial. XD. Tp g ad kau ttp aj sepi kali dunia ini trsa.

Smg kau hr ini jg fun ya! Gw baik2 aj. Lu jg hrs gt. Ok, smgt ya! Syg bgt e sm C! :*

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I cant deny

Entah saat aku dlm kondisi bgoni, aku slalu g sengajs dgr lgu2 yg nadanya bgs n liriknya lmyn cocok. Hahaha.

Slh satunya kmrn sblm dy konta, aku dgr acars musik n isinya lgu2 korea ttg patah hati. Slh satu yg aku sk nadanya adl lgnya sistar.

Ya. Saat sepi dan ksepian, kdg aku kehilangan kprcayaanku pdnya kmdn brsedih.

Tp saat mngingat btpa dy sgt mnyayangi tunanganya, aku sdar bhw peranku mgkn mmg sdh hbs dan sampai dsni sj. Dan aku sudah sgt amat snang bs mlakukan bnyk hal dgnya. Dan aku bahagia mlihatnya brdua dg yg ia cintai sesungghnya..

Yea, but sometimes I just can' drny that I feel like llosing you...

Hha. Mo bagi lirik aj bnyk omg gw. XD

The song...

Gone not around any longer - sistar

English Translation:
I didn’t know we would break up so easily
My tears won’t stop flowing
In my bathroom your toothbrush was here
then gone
Your strong scent was here then gone
I just wanted to say that I love you
But your number is disconnected now
The pictures in the frame were here then
gone
Fallen hair were here then gone
Walking on the road with an empty mind
As tears keep flowing down
I can’t brethe now that you’re now longer
here
I can’t even stay because you aren’t with me
I am slowly dying but you’re not here
Anymore anymore anymore
I can’t smile because you’re no longer here
Because you’re not here
I hate seeing myself break down
I have nowhere to depend on now
Why am I withering away like a fool
everyday?
Like a darkened flower, without you, I just
Keep saying it’s painful, sad, alone
I fall asleep again crying
I hate to see myself get drunk and stumble
Can’t fight with you even if I want to now
Because you’re gone, because you’re gone
I got no one to talk to now
I can’t brethe now that you’re now longer
here
I can’t even stay because you aren’t with me
I am slowly dying but you’re not here
Anymore anymore anymore
I can’t smile because you’re no longer here
Because you’re not here
I hate seeing myself break down
I have nowhere to depend on now
Because you are not around any longer
Please come back to me

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Monday, August 12, 2013

Smgt dika!

Smgt dika! Ga ada mimpi yg ga berakhir. So ini saatnya bangun dan hidup d dunia nyata! Bnyk org yg menantimu! Dan jika kau merindukannya, tidurlah. Dan kau bs kmbali brmimpi!

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You have everything

Kau memiliki pasangan yg benar, kau memiliku diriku seutuhnya, kau memiliki kluarga yg dekat, kau memiliki tman yg peduli, kau pintar, cerdas, pnampilan mnarik, brbskat, dan kau memilikiNya.

Apalagi yg perlu kau sedihkan? :) smgt n Gbu!

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You never leave, always in my heart...

You are alawys in my heart. Even you ooften appear in my mind and visit me in my dreams.. you are so close to me. And you love me. What else I need to worry..?

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Ah, God

Ah.. ya. Gw tau dy syg bgt k gw. Trnyt mmg bkn krn kkurangnku ato kechildishannya. Tp krnMu Tuhan..

Wlopun ia msh ttp sama sifatnya. Mudah skali trsulut. Sigh...

God.. ajari aku utk jd lbh baik lg dan bs mnerima smuanya. Apa yg salah dr diriku yg aku tak tau, kau mau tunjukkan. Aku ingn bljr Tuhan... :')

Thx utknya jg Tuhan. Thx for the beautiful sin that You let me to feel.. thx.. that i've been a human n knows what love is. Thx.. jaga kami Tuhan. :')

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Hari ini

Hey c, aku uda d kos tmnmu. Baik dy ya. Td aku nail trans jkt n kbablasan 1 halte. Trs dy cari pdhl aku ud balik d halte yg bnr. Tp akirnya ktm jg.

Aku d kosnya sdr skrg. Dy hrs jagain calonnya. Jd cm bs tmani d saat2 trntu. Kmarnya lmyn luas. Kmr mndi dlm n kasurnya springbed. Ad tv jg. Lptopnya rsk dan td mo dbwakan lptop kntornya. Tp lp. Hha. Baik bgt ye.

Skrg lg sdr nih. Untg hp bs ol. Td aku k kdutaan tp ud ttup gr2 lm d busway. Jdnya bsk lg ksna. Smg lncar y.

O ya, lg ap? Rindu bgt. Pst lg nnton. Hha. Slmt nnton y. Gw jg lg nnton iklan2. XD.

O ya, td ngbrol dkit klo kita mo ktmu dsini utk plg brg. Hha. Dy k bali trnyta mau lburan. XD.

Hmm.. maaf kmrn g ad kontk sn skali. Smg yg gw lkukan kmrn bnar y. Wlopun endingnya kita gni lg.. smg kmrn n skrg lu lg ngtes gw ya. Gw kngn bgt pngn kontak. Tp pngn jg nurut kt2 lu.

Ah.. smgt ajalah kita ya! Bntr lg kan ktmu n bs main d jkt dl brg. Ntr sm ayahut ya. Jln2. Dkat sni ad mall.

Btw, lm bgt aku ktik d hp tp br jln 15 mnt. XD. Lm bgt wktu brlalu klo gni. Hha.

Ok. Ntr aku kbarin lg ya. Baik2 dsna n have fun. Ingt lgunya BCL yg cinta sejati ya. G prlu kwtr lg. We're sooo close. Gw bs mrasakannya. Krn itu gw bs sdkt tnang. See ya soon, C. :)

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Tes

C, lg ap? Aku lg tes aplikasi blogger utk android nih. Warnet dkat sni tutup. :(

Ok, sgni dlu. Klo brhsl, ntr lgs update. :)

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love is blind

i trust you with my all.
and that will always be...

and even if the future was really just a dream
i would keep walking forward

with all my faith
with all my memories
with all this love

that's why i can still go on up til now.
and that will never change...

if you won't come today, you may be going to come tomorrow, or the day after...
i just believe you will
since i know exactly, that we share the same feeling...

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c.. udah lama bgt kita ga ketemu. bahkan sehari kemarin kita ga ngobrol scr lgs. tp thx ya c, kmu masih mau ngobrol lewat semua updatan mu. gw sneng bgt kmu msh syg n perhatian sm aku. aku percaya itu c. itu knp aku g kawatir slama ini.

skrg aku bnr2 sama skali gbs kontak kamu c. mungkin kmu pngn aku lbh tulus lagi ya, c? haha. iya c. aku akan berusaha utk lbh tulus menyayangimu. tp, aku akan brusaha gmn caranya spy bs kontak kmu lg.

o ya, tinggal bbrp hari lagi ya kita ketemu. ga nyangka waktu berjalan dg cepat. aku rindu kali sm kau. apalagi akir2 ini aku mencoba utk lbh percaya sama kau lg.

btw, kmu lg apa c? pst senang bgt ya bs nonton bnyk acara2 bgus di tv kabel. jgn sdh ya, c. bentar lg kita kan ktmu. nikmatin masa2 kita jauh ini c. masa2 kita saling berusaha utk tetap percaya n menyayngi. lucu jg kita ya c, kalo lagi jauh gini..

hari ini aku mau ke sbank n ke kdutaan c. dsini repot mau kmana2. doakan smg semua lancar ya. kamu jg disana baik2. tetap jaga kesehatan jg.

c, mgkn aku gbs srg ksh kbr lewat sini. tgu kbr ku ya, c. aku jg slalu tgu kabarmu.

senangnyas kita bs ketemu lagi bbrp hari lg. :D

GBU c! smgt!






Thursday, August 8, 2013

siapa pelarianku?

setiap kau sedang tidak ingin denganku, kau selalu berlari padanya..
kau memilikinya... orang yang membuatmu bisa selalu nyaman bersamanya...

tidak sepertiku, yang hanya bisa membuatmu nyaman sebentar saja
dan lebih banyak mengecewakanmu...

mungkin tidak sering kau dengannya..
namun, saat aku bukan lagi prioritasmu, dengan pasti kau menghampirinya
bercanda, berbagi cerita, dan menutup lukamu...

kini aku makin sadar, siapa diriku..
aku hanya ada untuk sementara
saat aku terasa manis..

dan aku sadar, betapa berkekurangannya diriku..
aku tak bisa membuatmu selalu tersenyum...

ya, wajarlah hal itu... orang mana yang mau makan menghisap tebu yang tak manis lagi

ya.. ia.. ia selalu dapat merekahkan senyum yang manis di bibirmu..
dan menghentikan tangismu...

dan saat itu, aku berlari.. berlari tanpa arah,
mencari tempat untuk berteduh dari hujan yang dingin dan deras..
namun tak pernah ku temukan...

selain kenangan dan keyakinan...
kenangan yang tak tergantikan..
dan keyakinan akan perasaanmu padaku...

kesanalah aku berlari.. hanya disanalah tempatku berteduh...




Thursday, August 1, 2013

i am just a lucky person

dibandingkan dg banyak org, gw bukan trmasuk org yang hebat, sukses, pintar, berada, dan sejenisnya. gw udah usia segini. masih kuliah ga lulus2. bakat yang dikuasai bgt ga ada. skill setengah2. dan sejenisnya. 

tp gw merasa sangat beruntung. bnyk org yg bntu kehidupan gw. gw pny kluarga yg luar biasa. sodara2 yg ga pernah berhenti membantu gw. teman2 yg asik2. tetangga2 yg sgt peduli dg kluarga gw. gw terlahir sbg manusia dg kepribadian spt ini. dan gw memilikinya.

ya, dia... org yg selalu mengingatkanku utk bangun, kerja skripsi, ngatur duit, ngingatin utang2 teman, dan bnyk hal lain. dia yg banyak org sangat mengingnkannya jg. dia yg gw suka dari pertama gw liat. dia yg mnrt gw adl org yg slama ini gw cari. dan dia adlh milik gw skrg. walopun ini semua ga berjalan mulus. bahkan sering terjadi perselisihan, gw tetap g pernah berhenti merasa beruntung. dia selalu menyayangiku... bhkn saat ia tau kalo gw ini ga sesempurna sperti yg ia harapkan.

Tuhan itu baik skali ya... 

dan yang terakir, aku jg terlalu beruntung, bs menjadi anak Mu, Tuhan...