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Monday, July 18, 2016

Je suis malade

Last night... i asked God if i could meet you by passing by those streets we usually had passed by together. And He answered. We accidentally met. Eyes to eyes. I was frozen as you passed my by. One thing i could do was just to start my motorcycle and did as u did. Left that street with all of our memories.

It's only seconds we starred each other until we parted. No words. Only to freeze. Didnt know what to do...

I m so happy that you are okay. You are healthy. You do your routines.

But i cant deny... i also feel another feeling...

Like the song i heard just now from smule. A song i have ever heard long time ago. Yet i never know the tittle n the lyrics. And magically, i heard it again... when my heart n soul spoke as the song spoke.

A very sad yet beautiful song from lara fabian... Je suis malade

Here's the lyric n translation
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Lara fabian - Je suis Malade

Je ne rêve plus, je ne fume plus
Je n'ai même plus d'histoire
Je suis sale sans toi, je suis laide sans toi
Je suis comme un orphelin dans un dortoir

Je n'ai plus envie de vivre ma vie
Ma vie cesse quand tu pars
Je n'ai plus de vie et même mon lit
Se transforme en quai de gareo
Quand tu t'en vas

Je suis malade, complètement malade
Comme quand ma mère sortait le soir
Et qu'elle me laissait seule avec mon désespoir

Je suis malade, parfaitement malade
T'arrives on ne sait jamais quand
Tu repars on ne sait jamais où
Et ça va faire bientôt deux ans
Que tu t'en fous

Comme à un rocher, comme à un pêche
Je suis accrochée à toi
Je suis fatiguée, je suis épuisée
De faire semblant d'être heureux quand ils sont là

Je bois toutes les nuits, mais tous les whiskies
Pour moi ont le même goût
Et tous les bateaux portent ton drapeau
Je ne sais plus où aller, tu es partout
Je suis malade, complètement malade
Je verse mon sang dans ton corps
Et je suis comme un oiseau mort quand toi tu dors

Je suis malade, parfaitement malade
Tu m'as privée de tous mes chants
Tu m'as vidée de tous mes mots
Pourtant moi j'avais du talent avant ta peau

Cet amour me tue et si ça continue
Je crèverai seule avec moi
Près de ma radio, comme un gosse idiot
Ecoutant ma propre voix qui chantera
Je suis malade, complètement malade
Comme quand ma mère sortait le soir
Et qu'elle me laissait seule avec mon désespoir

Je suis malade, c'est ça, je suis malade
Tu m'as privée de tous mes chants
Tu m'as vidée de tous mes mots
Et j'ai le cour complètement malade
Cerné de barricades, t'entends ? je suis malade


English translation

I'm sick

I no longer dream , I no longer smoke
I no longer even have a story
I'm dirty without you , I'm ugly without you

I'm like an orphan who has no dormitory
I no longer want to live my life
My life ceases when you go away
I no longer have a life & even my bed
Turns into a platform of station
When you go away

I'm sick , completely sick
Like when my mother used to go out by night
& When she left me alone with my despair

I'm sick , perfectly sick
You come , I never know when
You go again , I never know where
& It's been two years soon
That you don't care

Like to a rock , like to a sin
I'm clung to you
I'm tired , I'm worn out
To pretend I'm happy when they are there
I drink every night but all the whiskies
Have the same taste to me
& All the boats carry your flag
I no longer know where I should go , you are everywhere

I'm sick , completely sick
I pour my blood down over your body
& I'm like a dead bird while you sleep

I'm sick , perfectly sick
You've deprived me of all my songs
You've emptied me of all my words
Though I used to have talent before your skin

This love kills me & if it continues
I will die alone with myself
Next to my radio like a stupid kid
Listening to my own voice that will sing

I'm sick , completely sick
Like when my mother used to go out by night
& When she left me alone with my despair

I'm sick , that's it I'm sick
You've deprived me of all my songs
You've emptied me of all my words
& My heart is completely sick
Surrounded with barricades , listen , I'm sick



lyrics n translation taken from :
http://lyricstranslate.com/en/je-suis-malade-je-suis-malade.html-0

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Saturday, July 9, 2016

thanks for coming

In a bus... in my way back to the city i work, i dreamt again... that was the most real dream i ever experinced. We met again C... and you finally came to my family's new house. You even met my sist and chatted about her wedding party. That was so real.

Thank you so much, C...

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Thursday, July 7, 2016

Finally i could see your smile again

Thank you that you gave a lil time to meet me. I was so happy that you could walk with me, like it used to be, went out together. I could see how cute and funny you were. I could see how bright your smile was again... until i woke from that beautiful dream...

Yea... though it's only in dream, i am so happy... take care... Gbu...

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Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Bound to you

I'm home, C. How are you? I really want to see you. But i know i'm better not. But you know? Every road i pass by picture our memories together. Since we've gone by all the roads here.. together... :)

I believe one day we'll eventually meet. When everything has gone normal. I don't care if it will take years or lives... i will patiently wait until that day comes.

By the way... i found a beautiful song yesterday. I dont know how much it connects to my feeling right now but somehow i feel like the song's musoc, tones and notes really describe what i'm feeling now. Here is the lyric :


Bound to you by Christina Aguilera

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I’ve opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us
You’re all I need when I’m holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight
I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you
So much, so young, I’ve faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I’m strong and I’m sure there’s a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure
I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don’t tear this apart
I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can’t you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to
Suddenly the moment’s here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all? Come this far just to fall?
Fall
I can trust and boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
And finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am, ooh I am
I’m bound to you



C... i miss you. I love you. Stay healthy n good. Take care... Gbu.

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